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By Rayne, on January 24th, 2011
I’ve spent much of my time on this blog describing my time as a submissive. Wanna here about the times when I take total control?  Strap in and hold on.
CBT, cock and ball torture for those of you who don’t know, is perhaps the most total form of submission. We all know how much a man treasures those jewels of his nether regions. It can be the origin of the greatest pleasure he will ever know. And when he hands them over to a Mistress to subject them to excruciating pain, it reveals an unspeakable trust and willingness to submit to that Mistress. Perhaps that is why I enjoy it so much.
I adore a pain slut so who will allow me the pleasure of brutalizing his twig and berries. But even more impressive is he who doesn’t enjoy the pain submitting to the torture. When he who endures less enthusiastically agrees to do so out of an act of total submission, my little black heart is truly touched. It doesn’t afford him any mercy, of course. But still, I am touched.
Among my favorite acts of cock and ball brutality: The zipper, Brushing, and a good old spanking with a wooden brush. Find yourself curious just how brutal these little diddies are? Call me up for your own CBT session.
By Rayne, on January 8th, 2011
This caller wants me to find pleasure in the pain. Weird? Na.
 He’s sweet and cuddly, but when I had my much anticipated first call with Weirdna, he insisted I wield my hair brush at my ample ass cheeks without any mercy. He did sweeten the pot, though, by mandating that I also use my favorite vibrator. It was his insistence that I associate the pain being inflicted with sexual pleasure. So as I paddled myself, I held the vibrator in that oh so sensitive spot. So I had the opportunity to experience extreme arousal during a spanking. Usually not the case.
I find the power exerted by a man or woman during a spanking to be a turn on like broad shoulders or great tits, but the most erotic moments for me come after that exertion of power is over and the more “traditional” sexual act begins.
I’ve often marveled at stories of you pain sluts who experience orgasms during spankings alone. But, then, I skipped a lot of biology classes. Seems there’s no phenomenon. According to Wendy Strgar of Reality Sandwich, “Love, sex, pain and violence all stimulate the release of similar chemicals and hormones in the human body…Normal human biological response actually supports the complex and mysterious link between pain and pleasure.”
So Weirnda’s experiment has nature on it’s side. Guess any future spankings will tell if he was able to successfully link sexual pleasure and spankings in my psyche.
By Rayne, on December 17th, 2010
 Ever giggled your way through a spanking?
I have. Is the thought unimaginable? I bet your spankings from your strict Mistress are nothing to sneeze at. And though deep down you probably relish every moment of it, I bet you can’t fathom cracking a smile as you endure the pain of it. Well, you haven’t met my “punisher”. A regular caller I quite affectionately call Spankster.
I made Spankster’s acquantaince on IM early in my time here at LDW. We had a bit of fun, casual, disarming conversation. Eventually talk turned to what sort of call we might have. When he asked if I would be willing to take a spanking (spank myself under his command) during a call, I thought it had to be a joke! Hazing the new girl, huh?!? I thought he was trying to trick me into something unheard of and demeaning to a true femdom. I quickly IM’d one of my mentors here, she replied that the choice was mine. I was faced with a difficult decision. I thought my training period at the dungeon would be my last experience at that end of a paddle. Never again would I take a spanking I vowed. But there’s just something about Spankster.
So polite, is he, when ordering me to pull my tights down around my knees during our afternoon calls. I never thought I would be jovial as I took a paddle to my own ass or was told to assume a position that involved me grabbing my ankles and repeating phrases he force feeds me. But I do it with a smile as we joke and converse. Though he is curious about what a girl like me finds embarrassing and painful, seems its not his goal to inflict extreme pain or humiliation. Ever asking if I’m alright, we go through our paces. It is erotic, experimental and even fun.
So my switch self has found it is not always the heaviest hand that might put a challenging submissive in their place. There must, most importantly, be a mutual trust, some form of a rapport, and maybe even a little of the type of admiration I have for my boy, Spankster.
By Rayne, on December 7th, 2010
…and sometimes he even wins.
I have a regular caller who ranks among my favorites. When his voice introduces him, I get a chill up my spine. I know what I’m in  for…an awesome fucking time. A mental tango. He always calls with an intricate, erotic fantasy but the end is always up in the air. Be it superhero and villainess, vampire and prey, or something else as tantalizing I wont always get to play the role of domina with this gentleman and we always battle over who will end up on top.
It’s quite arousing the way we go ’round trying to find our way into each other. We each take our roles, and go back and forth with some of the most compelling dialogue I have experienced on a call or elsewhere. We build on the foundation of his fantasy until we have worked ourselves into a frenzy, all the while battling for dominance.
I don’t know about every other switch out there, but I rarely ever just settle into the role of submissive. I have to be put there. He has managed that. The first time came by surprise. Pleasant surprise. Now each time I anticipate that I just might be bested. I relish the challenge. And even accept defeat with a smile…and sometimes more.
By Rayne, on November 12th, 2010
 you never know what’s happening behind closed doors
Closets come in all shapes and sizes. Big, small, dark, or full of light. One never knows what they might find behind those closet doors. A t-girl whose clitty stands at attention as she whirls around surveying all her beautiful frocks and lingerie. A married man brought to his knees by his cock cravings. A powerful and confident domina who occasionally takes the submissive role…
Hello. I am Rayne. Mistress Rayne to many of you. In our sessions I have probably been an unyielding, dominant force that has brought you to your knees. You would probably never imagine that I have a submissive side.
Hell, six months ago, I never would have imagined it. As a neophyte Domina in the dungeon I was forced to submit to the sub role as part of my training. Some belief about how knowing both sides of the whip helps you to be a better dominant. I hated it with a passion. I wanted to be the one always in control. Always in the position of power.
So how is it I find myself exploring my submissive side as a Switch?
I ask myself that same question. Is it an internal release that allows me to relinquish some of that power. Is it external? Is there something extraordinary about the men and women I have allowed to take the dominant role, even if only for a night.
Join me here as I explore the submissive side that is the antithesis of my usual dominant self.
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